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1. You have to post these rules.
2. Each person has to share 13 things about them.
3. Answer the 13 questions asked to you and invent 13 questions the people you tag will answer.
4. Choose 13 people (If you can).
5. Go to their page and inform them that they've been tagged.
6. Not something like, "You're tagged if you read that."
7. You have to legitimately tag 13 people.
8. You can't say that you don't do tags.
9. Tag-backs ARE allowed.
10. YOU MUST MAKE A JOURNAL ENTRY. NO COMMENTS. Unless you're commenting about the actual entry.
11. You have to finish within a week. If not; you'll have to do whatever the creator tells you to. Art, RP, etc.
12. Be creative with the title. No "I've been tagged" things.
13. Cussing IS allowed.

13 facts about me:

1. I started writing when I was like 3- I was writing letters to Peter Pan.

2. Superheroes (and supervillains) are my jam. 

3. I'm pretty sure I'm physically dependent on coffee.

4. I want to be either an actress or a writer when I get older. 

5. I used to be solely Marvel, but then I watched The Flash. I now love both. 

6. I do a lot of musical theater. 

7. I have been single for three years now.

8. I spend more time in my head than I do in real life tbh. #lAME

9. Christmas and Halloween are my favorite holidays.

10. If I had one wish, it would be for a portal to travel to any fictional universe I wanted. 

11. I'm pretty sure I fantasize about actually murdering someone at least twice a day. 

12. I work in a scaregrounds every Halloween and it is something I look forward to so much.

13. As much as I may be in love with Bucky Barnes, Barry Allen and Pietro Maximoff, I am also in love with Grant Ward and Brock Rumlow. My tastes go from sweetest muffin in the world to the baddest villains ever.

Now the questions I was asked!!!

1. What is a pet peeve of yours?

When people do things to deliberately get my attention without directing it at me. 

2. If you had to dye your hair, what color would you dye it?

Dark blue and dark purple like dye my whole head, I'm down. 

3. Your favorite movie that's NOT a superhero movie?

At the moment? Van Helsing. Happy Halloween!

4. What can't you do that you wish you could?

Become an actress.

5. Do you have a favorite flower? If so, what is it?


6. Have you ever been in love, if so are you still in love with them?

Yes, I've been in love. It sucked. Do fictional characters count cause no, I'm not still in love with him. 

7. What's your favorite foreign food?

MEXICAN ALL THE WAY. Gimme some tamales any day.

8. What is the weirdest date you've ever been on? If you haven't been on a date what is the most embarrassing story you have?

Okay so there was this one time where it was an unofficial date with me and one of my really good friends (who's now actually dating my older cousin) and I got almost drunk and he got buzzed and we went drifting with some of his friends. It's probably one of my weirdest dates ever, but it was so much fun.

9. Are you a Coke or Pepsi Person?


10. The best time you had this year?

Going to Enchanted Forest and seeing someone I've had a crush on forever. It was great. Best memory ever.

11. Are you an introvert or extrovert?

I used to think I was an introvert, but I am actually an ambivert.

12. What color describes you?

That beautiful shade of reddish black that screams evil queen. 

13. Where do you want to go someday?

Either Romania or the UK, to see some of my long-distance buddies.

And my questions!!

1. What is your favorite holiday?
2. If you could have one fictional character to bring into your world, who would it be?
3. If you had a super power, what would it be?
4. What was your childhood dream?
5. Do you have a favorite beverage?
6. Would you consider yourself a hero or a villain or neutral?
7. What's your favorite kind of candy?
8. Chicken nuggets or french fries?
9. Favorite fictional character?
10. What's your favorite song?
11. What's your dream vacation? 
12. What song describes you?
13. What's your favorite TV show?

Okay finally the people I tag. You don't have to do it if you have already.

It was like you were falling, reaching out in the dark for something you knew wouldn’t reach your fingertips. Oh and this darkness was an ache, devouring you from the inside out. There was no telling whether it was pain of the heart or of the body.

It just... hurt.

And you opened your eyes. Just like that, the decision made like a snap. The ache was dulled, the gutted feeling gone. It was so bright... and you were so cold. That was normal, wasn’t it? It was supposed to be this way. There was something you needed to do but it was blurred now; nothing more than a smear in your thought. Your head was pounding, heated far too much compared to the hollow ice that encased the rest of you- somehow, you sat up anyway. Geez, this sucked. What was-


It all came back. Unexpected, sure, but that didn’t mean you’d shy away from it. Had they gotten you again? You were resting on a cot made with sterile white sheets, encased in some observation room where three of the damn walls were glass. It didn’t take a second moment for you to leap out of the bed, pressed against the glass in search of your keepers. No, no, no-

“No, no, no...”

Not again, please not again. The air was being sucked from your lungs, devastation flooding through your system like a poison.

“(Name), you’re awake!” A voice, tinged with relief and adoration. Steve! He emerged into your line of sight with a sorrow-stained smile, but you hardly noticed. You were uncontrollably laughing- maybe crying, you weren’t quite sure- as you slipped relaxed against the slim window that divided you from one of your only companions left. Steve. It was Steve. You were safe, with SHIELD.

“I’m sorry about the, ah... security measures.” He nodded to the room that kept you. “They were worried about you.” Both you and him knew that was total BS, but you couldn’t bring yourself to care. You were dangerous. They didn’t know what HYDRA did. You were so happy to be safe, even if the cost was that you’d spend your time in here. It was probably... for the best.

It was only then that you noticed the bandages that ultimately encompassed your arms. They reached from just below your knuckles to an inch past your elbows. That was... strange.

“Oh! You were wounded when you did your little...” Steve struggled for words, leaving you bewildered. What was he-

Oh. Oh.

Right. That’s how you got out. You remembered, and you did your little... thing. It was vague, but new images were crossing your mind. The bright red as you stabbed Steve, beautiful blue eyes... Bucky.

“I’m sorry, Steve. I really didn’t mean to hurt you.” There. No more awkward fumbling. There was something you needed to know, now. “Bucky. Is he...? Did he stick around? Do you know where he is?” Please say yes.

The answer was clear before he even said a word. Guilt crossed his expression, defined by grief-stricken features. Subtle, but you were paying attention.

“No. I’m sorry. He let us take you and... disappeared.”
HYDRA didn’t take him back like they said they did. For now, that was a relief. But did they have him now? HYDRA. Ugh. Your own father. Your sister. One big black hole that was sucking in everything normal in your life; everything you loved.

And somehow, at the end of it all, you could still smile. There was hope.

“He really is honorable,” you murmured, sliding to the ground in order to sit. Steve mirrored you, a solid sign that he wasn’t going anywhere. The smile on his lips lost some of its sadness, replaced by memory. “I never really realized that the Bucky you told me about was still alive. Not after HYDRA, or the war. But he’s really in there, Steve. He’s still there, even though he’s different.”

The Avenger nodded slowly in mutual admiration. “I knew he was. That’s why I’m gonna find him. I made him a promise that I’m going to keep.”

The conversation went on. Oddly enough, you found yourself able to laugh. He told you war stories, even some about his childhood. He explained that you were actually in transit- you were both sitting on a huge boat and this was the only means of keeping you secure. They were sending you to Coulson’s team, apparently more experienced about things like this, for an evaluation. It wasn’t as bad as it could have been. Honestly, you weren’t even sure if it was really sinking in.

Nothing felt real anymore.

“Yeah,” Steve’s humor faded quickly to a sobered tone. “We stormed the HYDRA base, but some escaped.”

“Some... meaning my father,” you concluded, smile weakening as you met his gaze. “You haven’t mentioned his apprehension. I just figured...”

“I’m sorry, (Name). I really am. There was no way of knowing.”

And there it finally came. It happened too quickly to fight, the hot burning of emotion stifling your throat. A sucked in breath as you tried to regain your bearings, only fueling the short whimper that followed. You burst into tears, unwarranted and seemingly unstoppable. There were holes in you, breaking with grief with every sob that wracked your shaking body. Everything you ever knew was a lie. You had nothing left to love. Everything was wrong and they had to keep you in a cage and you were broken and wrong and poisoned.

Somewhere in the distance, you heard the gentle murmuring of your name as strong arms scooped you into an embrace. He was there, against regulation no doubt. Steve let you cry into his chest for what seemed like forever; until the shards of reality and soul-swallowing sorrow faded into a cocoon of exhaustion and your consciousness flitted away.



She was bad off, but there was still hope. Every minute she was gone felt like an eternity in which possibilities plagued the Captain’s head. There was always a lingering fear that the sweet little scientist he knew would end up like the only person that ever really mattered to him. Bucky. Yet here she was, maintaining her sanity the best she could. Today, he’d gotten both the calm and the storm. In all honesty, it relieved him on a deeper level than it broke his heart. She was getting it out. HYDRA got her, but they didn’t destroy her. Not as far as he could see. He’d held her for almost an hour as she cried, wrapped in his jacket and pressed close to his chest. She was sleeping now, but he’d be damned if he wasn’t gonna keep near.

Steve wasn’t going to let anything happen to her. He’d made that mistake once, it wouldn’t happen again. No matter what.

Before this, he had no idea how much she meant to him.

Winter Soldier x Reader (31)
Omg guys look what I did be proud of me. I know an update has been in high demand, and it's now my goal to finish this. I'm sorry I've made you guys wait a year!! This chapter is mostly just resolution of the last battle, but I promise there is more to come!
Tagged by m'dear :artisticallystupid:

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then repost as "I'm __% Virgin" after you are done. Lower number you have the more you've done! 

START: 100%

() Smoked.
(x) Drank alcohol.
(x) Cried when someone died.
(x) Been drunk.
(x) Had sex.
(x) Been to a concert.
() gotten/given a hand-job.
() gotten/given a blow-job.
(x) Been verbally/sexually harassed.
() Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.


() Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
(x) Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. 
(x) Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
(x) Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
() Been to prom.
(x) Cried at school.
(x) Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
() Went streaking.
() Given or received a lap dance.
(x) Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.


(x) Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
(x) Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
() Kissed a stranger.
() Hugged a stranger.
() Went scuba diving.
(x) Driven a car.
(x) Gotten an x-ray.
() Hit by a car.
(x) Had a party.
() Done serious drugs.


() Played strip poker/darts.
() Got paid to strip for someone.
() Run away from home.
() Broken a bone.
(x) Eaten sushi.
() Bought porn.
(x) Watched porn.
() Made porn.
() Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
(x) Been in love.


(x) Made Out.
(x) Laughed so hard you cried.
(x) Cried yourself to sleep.
() Laughed yourself to sleep.
() Stabbed yourself.
(x) Shot a gun
(x) Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
(x) Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
(x) Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
(x) Watched an animal die.


() Watched a person die.
(x) Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person in the same room.
(x) Pranked somebody.
() Put somebody in the hospital. 
Sneaked into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
() Kissed somebody of the same sex.
(x) Dressed punk.
() Dressed goth.
(x) Dressed preppy.
() Been to a motocross race.


(x) Avoided somebody.
() Been stalked.
() Stalked someone.
() Met a celebrity. 
(x) Played an instrument.
(x) Ridden a horse.
(x) Cut yourself.
() Bungee jumped.
(x) Ding dong ditched somebody.
(x) Been to a wild party.


() Got caught stealing something.
() Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
(x) Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
(x) Gone out with your friend's crush.
() Gotten arrested.
() Been pregnant.
(x) Babysat.
() Been to another country.  
Set your house on fire.
(x) Had an encounter with a ghost.


() Donated your hair to cancer patients.
(x) Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
(x) Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
(x) Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
(x) Sat on your butt all day.
(x) Eaten a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
(x) Had a job.
() Gotten cut from a sports team.
(x) Been called a whore.
() Danced like a whore.


(x) Been mistaken as older/younger than your own age.
(x) Been in a car accident. 
(x) Been told you have beautiful eyes.
(x) Been told you have beautiful hair. 
(x) Been rejected.
() Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
(x) Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.

Total: 49% virgin


United States
Uhm. I wish I could make this simple, but it would seem that my obsessions are all over the place. Goes from anime to Avengers, to Homestuck and Hannibal. Yeap. Let's wait and see what my next obsession is.

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Berjhawn Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
HAppy Birthday lovie!!!! :D
kawaiinothing Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2015
:DD Omg thank you! <3
Berjhawn Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
No problem love :D
merry-weather-gold Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2015
Happy Birthday!
kawaiinothing Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2015
Thank you! <333 That's so sweet of you. Huggle! 
scrougeofares Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2015
Happy birthday!
kawaiinothing Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2015
Oh my goodness I know this is late but thank you! <3 It means a ton that some of you have stuck with me through all the absence. xD
Heichouable Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Tag a quality deviant, You’re it! Quality doesn’t mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! Tight Hug
kawaiinothing Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2015
Omf baby. I love you toooo! <3 
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artisticallystupid Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday!! :D
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